Wednesday, October 05, 2005

pampas grass

"Work" has started. I've been "trained" to within an inch of having my brain explode. I'm cycling through phases: excited as hell about the work I'll get to do, worried that it will take over my life, and wondering if anyone else can tell that I'm a total fraud and don't actually know ANYTHING.

Oddly, it's not the momentous, life-changing event of actually starting my career that's getting to me. I'm being pulled apart by a million small annoyances. None of them are weighty enough for me to be able to point to and say "This...this is what is bothering me." It's just the collective weight. I feel like my life right now is this super-cute pair of shoes that I'm just noticing pinches my instep.

I'm trying to savor the little moments: a cuddle with Gia this morning, ridiculously sensual pomegranate sorbet at Left Bank, the quiet hum of finally (finally) having an office all to myself.

5 comments:

Snubligent said...

Man... an office to yourself is like the top reason for being a lawyer. I was so excited to find out that this was standard fare for us.

brimful said...

Amen to the million small annoyances.

I love having my office- I'm convinced it's the only reason I remain at my current job!

maisnon said...

Dude - I came from software engineering, i.e. the cubefarm way of life. I'm thrilled to have a door (and a *window*)!!!

Although, I'm kind of weirded out about having a secretary.

A room of one's own is indeed a fine thing.

Sushant Bhatia said...

Hehe Cubefarm. Thats the first time i've ever heard it refered to that way. I was lucky to have an office of my own when I was doing research/development for a lab on campus. Of course, I had to "store" my three monitors in a "secure" location so I managed to get a nice room.

Have you ever slept in your office? Ever used 3 chairs in a row to lie down? Ahh...good times!!!

Roonie said...

*sigh* The beginning of a long trek ahead...why do I want to start yet I know I will hate it?