Sunday, July 31, 2005

Sisyphus

I'm beyond exhausted. Only two other events in my life have knocked me on my ass this hard: my second marathon (also known as the "day I was so dehydrated I could not cry") and being the maid of honor in my best friend's wedding.

I've been reduced to an infant: I need to eat and sleep every 3 hours. As if I hadn't learn my lesson about planning, I've had to chuck all my ideas about how I was going to spend my few post-Bar days in Cali. What have I been doing instead? Sleeping, reading, sleeping, going for a walk, sleeping, shopping, sleeping. Do you see a pattern?

I missed something I really, really wanted to go to today. Maybe it's for the best, I'm not the best company right now. Meeting new people takes more than I have - focus, the ability to pay attention, process information, have synapses fire consistently enough to make conversation, etc.

I'm trying not to push - my fatigue is not just physical and fighting it will not help. I've planned to have an adventure tomorrow (in some form), so hopefully I can break out of my stupor.

5 comments:

Roonie said...

I'm in the same place. I thought I'd want to party my ass off. The only partying I've been able to do is to lift the drink to my mouth. No other partying has really followed suit.

Chai said...

i too am tired. and i can't explain it to other people. they look at me as if i'm the weird one.

to our recovery process!

jm said...

Same here. I've been pushing myself this weekend, but have still crashed for about 3-4 hours during the afternoon. At times socializing is just too much...and that's something I never thought I'd say.

brimful said...

All the same, BOOOOOO! :(

Said in love, because we missed you. :)

ads said...

Yeah, sorry I didn't get to meet you! But I hope you had a good day of recovering/adventuring.